Today turned into a big day for me I guess you could say. Today is the first time since having Liam that I didn’t take my pump to work. I made the decision yesterday, no more pumping.
My supply is diminishing a lot recently. Yesterday I pumped for 15 minutes at work and only got ½ ounce. My thought, is this really worth it?
This weekend I started introducing whole milk to in his bottles of formula. He seems to be taking them just fine. I’m hoping within the next few weeks he will be having whole milk all the time.
How am I feeling about not pumping anymore? A sense of relief that I am not tied down to it and having to take it everywhere with me. A sense of accomplishment that I’m so proud of myself for going this long. And a sense of sadness, that this chapter of my life is done for now. Who knew putting a pump away would trigger so many emotions.
I will still nurse Liam morning and night as long as he wants to. I’m not ready to end that. He still enjoys it and honestly so do I. I cherish the bond we have been able to form.
Taking this step today was big for me. But it also reminded me of how blessed I’ve been. Nursing has been relatively easy for me. He had issues latching correctly at first. But other than that, it’s been a pleasant experience. I’m thankful my body was able to produce for my child.
I will be packing the pump up and putting it in the closet. I only pray I’m able to take it out again down the road.
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It's crazy how something like that can be so emotional. I would be too! Congrats on making it this far! Tons of people don't even try.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I didn't pump exclusively I absolutely loathed it when I had to. I think you are amazing for having stuck with it so long. As I dropped feedings with Addy I'm pretty sure I cried every time. The last one was sooooo sad. Who knew these types of things could be so emotional?
ReplyDeleteGlad you're all doing well.
Amy, its amazing that you have been able to pump and breastfeed!! Josh never latched well and I had to just pump. Pumping never gave me much, but I always said something was better then nothing.
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