And it showed “Pregnant”. I’m in shock. My husband and I are both a bit taken aback. We’ve gotten pregnant quickly before but thought maybe this time it would take a bit. We want this; we are just surprised at how quickly it happened.
I’m beyond excited. I’m ready to be a mother again. Liam will be 3 months shy of 3 years if/when this baby is born. My due date is October 2.
But I’m scared. There are so many what ifs running through my head. What if this one doesn’t stick? What if I lose this baby? I can’t and won’t go through that again. Why can’t a “Pregnant” reading mean you get to take that baby home with you? If only that were true.
The next few weeks are critical for us based on experience. Our first ultrasound is on 2/26 and I will be 8 weeks 6 days. We have to get past that first hurdle. How scared I am. 2/26 seems so far away right now.
We are keeping this private for now. We’ve only told my parents. And I had to share on here as I need a place to share what thoughts are going through my head. I need some support.
Please pray for this baby that we may be able to see his/her beautiful face in October.
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ReplyDeleteI completely understand why you're so scared. Just take it a day at a time. Today you're pregnant. Enjoy it, and enjoy your new little baby! :)
Congrats Amy!!! I can totally understand your fears and doubts, totally normal and it's totally unfair we've been robbed of the pure joy that every one should have when they read "Pregnant" on the pee stick and want to be. Praying for your little one and that you start to feel some more reassurance as you see the progress - don't look for symptoms too much or you will go nuts! congrats!!
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