Challenges

I’m trying to remind myself that God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle.  I must remember that.

I lost my bloody show last night and was having some menstrual like cramps most of the night.  Our 38 week appointment was scheduled for tomorrow but I wanted to go today to see what was going on.  Well I was 2cm and 60% effaced which was progress.  Then he couldn’t seem to find his head so said we should do an ultrasound.  And what did we find; Sweetpea had rotated and now was in a breech position.  He was fine on Friday.  It’s interesting because last night there was a hard spot and I kept poking it and normally he would move but he didn’t.  Now I know it was because it was his head and not as easy to move as a leg or foot.

I’ve been really positive these past few weeks that I WILL have a VBAC.  It’s something I want so badly after having a c-section.  I’m not going to lie but this news put a damper on those positive thoughts.  I know there is time to move and room to move as he did it.  But what if he doesn’t?  We are giving him till Monday to do it on his own.  If he doesn’t then I will go into the hospital on Monday to have our doctor do it.  I trust him completely but wonder what if it doesn’t work.  That means another c-section and I really don’t want to have one.  This is my last shot at experiencing a vaginal birth.  Positive thoughts.  Positive thoughts.