October 15th

Tomorrow is October 15th, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. This day has been significant for me since losing Nathaniel, and then even more since losing Grace. Even though we have Liam, this day is so important to me and probably always will be.


I think about Nathaniel and Grace a lot. When I look at Liam, I wonder if they would have had his characteristics and mannerisms. My husband even said that the other day. I am so grateful everyday for Liam in my life. I am also so grateful to have had the chance to have N & G with me for even a brief moment. They might be gone, but their spirit lives in me.

Over the past year, I’ve gotten to a place where I’m not afraid to share my story anymore. Society wants you to be hush hush about losing a baby. I’ve realized that N & G made an impact on my life and I want to share that with them. I will be posting something on FB tomorrow. I’m not sure what yet, but I want people to be made aware of this important day. And be made aware that N & G were important in my life.

I am a follower of Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope on FB. They posted this today and it made me tear up.

MYTH: A parent who has lost a baby wants to forget it ever happened and move on with their life.


TRUTH: In the words of Elizabeth Edwards, "If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and...that is a great gift."


We will never forget our children that have gone before us. To be reminded that they have graced us with their presence is a blessing. Though we have endured pain and sadness with their loss, we have received a gift of having them in our lives even for a brief moment.


I love you so much Nathaniel and Grace. I hope you know how much you are missed and loved. I saw a flock of birds flying the other day and tears started streaming down. I thought of you free and at peace, flying with all the other angel babies.