I haven’t written in awhile. Time seems to be flying by. In just a little over a week Liam will be 10 months old. Seriously? How can my baby be growing so fast?
We have finally gotten the sleep thing down and how wonderful that is! Friday will make it 5 weeks of sleeping through the night every night (6:30pm to 6:30am). I feel like a person again! It’s taken a long time to get to this point and I’m appreciating it!
I’m still nursing though my supply is diminishing, especially with Liam sleeping through the night now. At first I started getting really hard on myself for not making enough to provide for him. But then I remembered I should be grateful for making it this far. Maybe it’s my body’s way of telling me, “Hey, I’m tired!” I’m nursing him in the morning, and then twice before bed during the week. I so cherish this time with him as I know we won’t be able to bond this way forever. I’d like to make it to a year. I think nursing has become as much a comfort to him as me.
He hasn’t decided to crawl yet, though is thinking about it. I know he will crawl and walk in his own time. And once he starts, watch out! He is a boy that likes to be on the move all the time so I can only imagine what he will do when he discovers crawling and walking.
The thought of having another baby has finally crossed my mind….now that I’m not sleep deprived! For awhile I didn’t know if I wanted another baby. I think the majority of those thoughts were coming from sleep deprivation and that I just wasn’t myself emotionally the first 6 months.
I do want another baby. But I know having another baby isn’t in my hands. I’m so scared to even think of trying again for fear of having another miscarriage. Am I strong enough to handle that again? Maybe Liam is the only child we were meant to have though I would love to give him a brother or sister. When we decide it’s time to try again down the road, I will worry about that.
For now, I’m cherishing every moment with Liam. He brings a smile to face. And to hear him laugh lights me up. He truly is a miracle that I’m thankful for each and every day.
I hope all is well with each and every one of you.
Holy cow! 10 months! He is just too cute! Yay yay yay for sleeping through the night. Praying for your family as you decide on extending your family. Nice to hear how you are all doing.
ReplyDeletehe is such a cutie! Munchkin weaned herself at 10 months, I had hopes of 18 months. He is probably just letting you know that he is happy with food now and there are lots of ways to bond with food that arn't nursing. The first time Munchkin and i had ice creams on the beach was just magic for me. its great watching there faces discover new foods.
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about wanting more. I still would like more babies but like you i'm terrified by the prospect of more miscarriages . i would really like a little boy. i am blessed with my girls and who knows what the future holds