Life

Life is better than the last time I wrote.  I’ve been on Zoloft for almost 2 months now and it’s been helping so much.  I feel like myself again.  I did up the dose a bit a few weeks ago as I definitely think there is room for improvement but I’m in a much better place now.

We started Logan on solids right at 6 months (April 1^st) and that’s been helping his sleep a great deal.  Since then he’s been a sleeping a longer chunk of time and only waking up once to eat.  He will go to bed about 7:30 and be up between 2:30 and 4:30 to eat and then back to bed till 7ish.  I know this has allowed me to get a lot more sleep which has helped my mood as well.

I’m glad I went to get help.  If I didn’t I don’t know where I would be right now.  I finally shared with my husband how bad it had gotten.  One night at 2am, during the time when Logan would wake every 2 hours, I was sitting in bed frustrated that I couldn’t sleep but yet I was so tired.  I had thought of getting in the car and driving it into the Lake.  I remembered it was frozen so probably wouldn’t accomplish much.  But my mind went there.  It’s really scary looking back on it now.  I so wanted to run away from everything.  It was a really dark place for me.  I don’t want to go there again, ever.

I don’t plan to get off Zoloft anytime soon.  I don’t want to be on it forever but I still need it for now.  There are some stressful situations going on at work too.  For now I need it to keep me in this ok place.

Logan is growing and growing.  We discovered on Thursday that his first tooth had popped through the skin.  I have felt it with nursing too which isn’t much fun.  He has the cutest little laugh.  He is going to be a daddy’s boy as he is constantly watching him and cracking smiles for him.  He loves to watch Liam no matter when he is doing.  They are going to have a special bond those boys.  He spits up a lot which I hope will get better soon!  And he loves to eat his solids.  The first time we tried he ate like a champ and knew exactly what to do!  Logan sure is a blessing and I’m so thankful to be his mother.