To Nathaniel

Nathaniel,


Today is the day we were going to meet you. You were supposed to be born today. I remember how I felt when I knew you were growing inside me. I was thrilled and loved you from the moment the pregnancy test read "Pregnant". I started imagining our life with you and how excited. Mommy and Daddy started instantly planning for your arrival.


Instead we had to say goodbye to you too early. My heart still hurts and I don't know if it will ever heal. I was so excited for this day, February 8, 2010. I remember I thought it seemed so far away. And now it is here and you are not.


Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I was blessed to have you in my life, even for a short period of time. You have your sister Grace, with you in heaven now, who came to join you in December. It gives me peace to know that you are together, protecting each other and watching out for each other. Oh how I wish things could have been different and both of you were here on earth with Mommy and Daddy right now.


I want you to know and never forget how much I love you and wanted you. I miss you so much - no words can express how much I miss you. I had a ring made with a birthstone for you and your sister, each representing the month in which we saw you on the ultrasound and also said goodbye. I look it at daily and am reminded of you and your sister, my angels in heaven.


February 8 will always hold a special place in my heart - the day we were supposed to meet you. I love you Nathaniel, with all of my heart.



Till we meet again....



Love you always,

Your Mom