I had another doctor’s appointment yesterday. My doctor suggested stripping my membranes to get labor going which I was really thinking I would do. But I wanted to see how dilated I was first. She checked and I was 2.5cm dilated which isn’t much from last week. Then she discovered that Peanut still hasn’t dropped yet and since he hasn’t dropped, she couldn’t strip my membranes.
By this point during a first pregnancy, the baby should have dropped by now. She is afraid that he might not have dropped because his head is too big for my pelvis. At an ultrasound at 36 weeks, we discovered his head was already measuring 40 weeks. The need to have a c-section has increased.
Honestly, it saddens me. After everything I have been through I was looking forward to going through the whole labor process. I was ok with enduring the pain to bring him into this world. I wanted to have the full experience of labor and delivery. Having a c-section scares me. I know so many women do it and I can do it but it still scares me a lot.
I’m trying to remember that this is all out of my hands. This whole process of getting pregnancy and having a baby has been out of my hands. It’s not the way I envisioned it, but it’s the way God wanted it to be. How I get Peanut into this world is just part of the process. I know right now I just need to do what is best for him and me. I want to see him so badly and if I have to have a c-section, than that is what I have to do. I am still having some pep talks with him and letting him know that we need to work together.
I have an appointment scheduled for Tuesday the 11th. I will be 40 weeks 2 days by then. They are going to do a Non-stress test as well to see how Peanut is doing. From what I can feel of him, he is still quite the happy boy in there and constantly moving around. I need to be patient, but honestly all I want right now is to finally hold this boy in my arms. Emotionally and physically I’m so exhausted. There is still a chance he can drop but who knows at this point. I will keep you posted.
You can still labor even if you end up needing a c-section - in fact it is actually really good for baby to go through the stressors of contractions prior to a c-section, it helps prepare them much better for being outside the womb (I read this in a book I have about brain development).
ReplyDeleteSo even if you do end up needing a c-section, you can still experience labor! I would totally talk to your doctor about it to see if she is willing to let you just go into labor on your own even if a c-section is suspected to be needed.
Are you getting another u/s to check his head measurements? Hang in there mama!! You are SO CLOSE to meeting him :)
Amy,
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you. Keep us posted. I can hear the frustration and weariness that you must be feeling. Remember that at the end of this journey you will have Peanut in your arms...and that's what matters the most.
Keep having those pep talks....and thanks for sharing...you are an inspiration.
All that matters is that he gets here safely. I hope everything works out for the best. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteSorry things are not going as you planned. I had a c-section with my twins and I am planning to have a VBAC with this pregnancy. I know I may have to have a repeat c-section and I am okay with it because I will do whatever it takes to bring this baby into the world safely. I can totally understand your fears and I had the same fears during my 1st. Wishing you the best!! xx
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that things aren't going as planned. You are absolutely correct though, what is important is getting him here safe & in your arms. Will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that Peanut has not dropped yet - I echo Dawn's comments that you are correct in whatever gets him out safely, will be the plan. Praying for you - you are so close to meeting him! :)
ReplyDeleteyour still not overdue munchkin didn't enter the world till 42 weeks ( 60% of all babies are late) he might just want an extra week in there its the baby that starts labour. but don't worry if you need a C section ( some babies are just stubborn) munchkin was almost an emergency c section they just managed to get the cap on her head and pull her out) not what i had expected my birth to be like but so long as peanut is in your arms it doesn't matter. good luck.
ReplyDeleteI know this feeling all too well. I planned for a vaginal and by the time they got me to 9 cm, they worried about his heartrate so I did what I had to do. It wasn't what I wanted but what I had to due. You will do great either way! Thinking of you and peanut! Lots of hugs!
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