It’s Time to Start Slowing Down

I’ve always been one that wants to do everything.  I try and be that “super mom” sometimes.  Saturday morning I had a bit of a scare.  I was spotting a bit which I never experienced with Liam.  It didn’t last long but really shook me up.  I really think it was due to the heat and me just doing too much.  I don’t take enough time these days to just relax.  And I need to do it for Sweetpea.  He is just too precious.  My mind started going places of him being born too early and it really freaked me out. 

So Saturday and Sunday I really did try and take it easy.  This weekend I realized I just can’t do as much as I have been doing.  I’m not going to lie but it really frustrates me as this is my personality.  I want to go all the time.  My health and the health of Sweetpea need to be my biggest concern these next 12 weeks.  I think this pregnancy is so different with having a toddler to take care of.  I just can’t lay down and take a nap whenever I want.  I might need to rely on my husband more.  On Saturday and Sunday I sent them outside for some pool time and golfing in the backyard.  I stayed inside and relaxed on the couch.  I’m not one to be lazy but I NEED to be for the health of my precious baby.

Wednesday will mark 28 weeks.  12 weeks based on how I’m feeling seems so far away.  I’m really uncomfortable at night these days.  Sleeping has really become a struggle.  I seem to be up just about every hour.  And I just can’t wait to meet Sweetpea.  I know we are so going to have our hands full but the thought of meeting him finally makes me so excited! 

Last night I have a dream I went into labor.  I know it’s me subconsciously wanting to have a VBAC.  I so want to experience giving birth the way nature intended.  I fear another C-section.  We will just have to wait and see how big Sweetpea gets and progresses. 

I hope you all had a wonderful 4^th.  The weekend went by way too fast.  I’m hoping to take maybe a week off sometime soon.  I think I need it for myself physically and mentally.