I lost our first child 3 months ago. I thought I was dealing ok with it. I would cry here and there, think about the baby every day but just try and get on with my life. Over the past few days I’ve come to realize that I haven’t really dealt with it. I feel like I’m walking around with a smile on my face like everything is perfect, when inside I’m crying and my heart is aching for this child. I’ve had a tough last few days. I’ve come to find comfort in other blogs of women who have gone through what I have. They have turned to blogging to talk about their emotions and I’ve come to discover this might be exactly what I need.
My biggest issue is that I’m not talking about it, I’m just keeping it inside and then I get days like this where I don’t want to get out of bed and have no motivation. I talk to my husband and my mom but that’s about it. I don’t feel like people want to hear about it. Miscarriage is not supposed to be talked about or people don’t want to talk about it. I feel like, it’s been 3 months; get on with your life. Well I can’t. I lost a piece of me.
I’ve been on FaceBook for awhile but lately just check out what other people are doing and don’t even put what’s on my mind. Does FaceBook and the world really want to know that I’m dying inside after losing this baby.
I’m hoping this is a place where I can share my emotions and hopefully post to the Miscarriage Blog Directory so people can hopefully take comfort as I have in their stories.
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