Taking It All In

I’m still taking in the ultrasound photos we saw on Monday of our baby. I still can’t believe this is finally happening to us. Our doctor took a few videos of the baby and you can see the heart thumping away. It is absolutely amazing and makes me love this child that much more. I have definitely chilled out and haven’t been freaking out as much since my appointment. I will be going every two weeks until the second trimester and think that will put my mind at ease. I am determined that this baby is going to stick and we are going to meet our little one in January.

My symptoms have slowly started coming back which is making me feel a whole lot better. I did get sick this morning. Normally I hate getting sick but it was all worth it. After, I told this baby that it was ok and that he/she was worth all this and so much more.

My biggest thing right now is I can’t sleep. I’m tired but I can’t sleep. I don’t know if it’s the weather as the last 4 days we have had a heat wave. I have a four day weekend so I’m hoping to catch up on some needed sleep.

Since our ultrasound on Monday I’ve been looking a lot at the ring I had made with birthstones representing Nathaniel and Grace. Even though we are pregnant again I want them to know they are not forgotten. They will always be a part of us and I will always be thankful for having them in our lives even for a short while. This baby has an angel brother and sister watching over him/her.

I am feeling blessed right now and cherishing every day I have with this baby. I know it can be taken away so quickly. I pray it doesn’t happen this time around. I have to remain positive that this time is it.