Monthly Writing Challenge

Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope has started a Monthly Writing Challenge. I thought this was a perfect way to share my thoughts along this journey.

November’s topic: It’s easy to focus on all the negative things that come from losing a baby, but have you discovered any ‘blessings in disguise’ throughout your journey? What can you find to be thankful for related to your loss?

We lost our first baby (Nathaniel) in July 2009 and then our second (Grace) in December 2009. I was mad at the world when our Grace was taken from us. It was difficult losing one, but two? I didn’t know how I could handle it and get through all the pain and sadness.

A week after I lost Grace, I received a necklace in the mail from a dear friend. It was a nest with two eggs in it. She had made it when she heard about our second loss. She wrote something on the card that sticks with me today. She told me that Nathaniel and Grace are in Heaven together protecting each other. Today, that thought still brings me peace. Yes, I lost Nathaniel and then Grace. But I have come to believe that Nathaniel needed Grace so they could protect one another while I can’t be there with them yet. Even though I miss them dearly, they needed each other more than I needed them. I’m thankful that my two angels are together, protecting one another and watching over me from above.