Thanksgiving is here in just a few days. The day is already making me have mixed emotions and thinking to last year. Last year I was pregnant with my precious little girl Grace. I remember we were planning to go to my husband’s dad house that weekend. My sister-in-law was pregnant at the time. I remember thinking before that I didn’t know if I could handle seeing her. But then we found out we were expecting Grace. It made the trip a little easier. I still remember my mother-in-law rubbing my sister-in-laws belly and how that felt. She never wanted to rub my belly. I was pregnant but it still hurt. Nathaniel should have been there with us too.
We are entering a new holiday season. This Thanksgiving Peanut will be with us. I am 33 weeks. I am so thankful this year for him. But it also doesn’t take away the pain of not having Nathaniel and Grace here with me. They should be here too. Instead I see them celebrating together in heaven. I hope they know how thankful I am to have had them in my life even for a short time.
I know Thanksgiving will still be filled with emotions for me. We will be going to my husband’s aunt’s house where I have had multiple meltdowns there. I am only so strong. I need to remember that I have my three children with me, one in utero and two in heaven. Even though we aren’t all together in body, we are together in spirit.
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Hloidays are always filled with mixed emoitions. but somehow we always make it through.
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I wish you had all of your babies physically with you this holiday season. (((hugs))
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Hope you have a wonderful thanksgiving with your family despite the unpleasant memories of thanksgivings past - your babies will always be with you and each holiday will just be a reminder how much they meant to you, the time they were here. Wow 33 weeks - where did the time go! you're almost there!!
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