I hope all of you had a wonderful Easter. I admit I was missing my angels terribly yesterday. Nathaniel would have been 2 months old or Grace would have been growing in my belly. Instead I woke up Easter morning to my period and bad cramps. It was bringing me down but then I started to look at in a different light.
The homily at mass was about letting go of the past and having a fresh start. I don’t think this could have been more relevant to what we’ve been going through. I realized I need to let go of my anger of losing my angels. I will never forget but I need to forgive. It is in the past and I can’t change that. All I can change is my attitude moving forward.
This Easter season, my husband and I have been given a fresh start. Yes, we still don’t have the answers but we have the hope of trying again. Sitting in church while I was cramping wasn’t pleasant but maybe it was God’s way of saying, “this is your brand new start”. It’s a new cycle and a new opportunity to create a new life.
God has given me a fresh start. It’s been a struggle to get here but I am going into this with a new sense of hope and determination. He put me on this earth to be a mother and I will fulfill that promise.
I hope all of you have been given a new sense of hope.
You are doing such a great job at remaining positive! There is no better "person" to lean on than the Lord. Praying that your fresh start results in all you prayers being answered.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your losses. I was aching for the child I miscarried at church yesterday, too. There is something about a holiday that just brings all of those important things right to the foreground.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you get another BFP very soon followed by a baby in your arms nine months later. It sounds like you have a great attitude about it all.
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I was thinking about you yesterday!! I love your determination to continue trying. xx
ReplyDeleteYou have an amazing attitude! Good luck! I hope things work out for you soon!
ReplyDeleteYou have an awesome attitude. I love how you are letting God guide you. He will bring good things. *hugs*
ReplyDeletekeep up the positive spirit Amy, and we're all here cheering you on!
ReplyDeleteWhat a positive outlook! Sometimes it is so hard to trust God's plan for us, or that we will get to bring home babies from the hospital one of these days. But I really do believe it will happen with all my heart.
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))