I am at a new stage during this TTC process. The months after losing both babies I focused a lot on my loss and dealing with the emotions and sadness. I guess you could say that was my obsession at the time. Well now I’m focused so much on trying again.
I think about it all the time; when I wake up, during work, when I go to bed, etc. It’s always on my mind of when we can try. I don’t know if it’s because it’s the first month that we have been given the go ahead and I’m just anxious about it? I try to not think about it but it seems to be consuming me.
I am still being very positive about the situation and that this time it’s going to work. But I hate that I’m obsessed with it. How have the rest of you dealt with this? My personality is not helping the situation either. I take after my grandfather that if I want something, I want it now. Well I have wanted to be a mother so bad for so long. I’m really trying hard to be patient and I know it’s going to take time. We do have in our favor that when we got pregnant it took us two months both times. I’m hoping that is the situation again. Patience right?
I hope you all have a relaxing weekend.
I think being obsessed with it is normal for us. It is hard not to think about it all the time and to not let it consume us. Happy to hear all the positive thoughts. Wishing for patience for both of us! :)
ReplyDeleteHi Amy, you are not alone in your obsession. If you read my posts from 2ww #1 to 2ww #4 you will see that my level of stress has diminished with each passing month. I had taken a year off from trying so that first month back I was a total nut case worrying about everything and really stressing myself out. It took me a few tries to find my balance, and I know you will too. I just keep telling myself that it's not in my hands, so to breath and let life happen. You have to understand though that women in our position don't have the privilege of being unaware of the process. We know so many details of how pregnancy works. It almost works against us and causes more stress. But we can't change what happened to us and what we know, we can only control how we utilize our knowledge. So keep your chin up. I believe that things will work out. And if they don't this month, apply what you've learned to next month. Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteIt is completely normal to obsess. I know I did! It is so hard not too!! I pray that you are blessed with the baby you deserve soon.
ReplyDeleteI obsessed too! :) Good luck, and I hope you have a sweet little baby to snuggle soon!
ReplyDeleteDefinitely normal to obsess...I can relate to this all too well, but don't let it stress you out. It took us two months for our first two pregnancies and when we got pregnant this time it took five mainly because I stressed myself out. Just be careful, but sending patient and stress free thoughts your way.
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