I have felt like I’ve been doing pretty well emotionally. Knowing we can try again has helped. I had a mini-setup back last night though. I had to run some errands yesterday and was in Old Navy. When I turned around what did I see but a pregnant woman. I’ve been trying really hard to not be jealous. I took a deep breath, said it was ok and continued on. I was impressed with how I moved forward so quickly.
My husband and I went grocery shopping last night. There was a young couple shopping together and the woman had a round belly. For some reason I just couldn’t get past this one. Maybe it was because it reminded me of what I wanted; my husband and I with a child in utero. Seeing her was me battling what I want but don’t have verses learning to accept what I do have.
After seeing her a third time in the store, the tears started to flow. I tried to cover it up as much as possible because I didn’t want people seeing me like this. I was strong all day but I guess we all have a breaking point. I haven’t cried in awhile and gotten out all my emotions so it probably was time. I guess the middle of Shaw’s wasn’t the most perfect time for that!
I’m also trying to de-stress as much as possible as this weekend we can start trying! My boss officially left two weeks ago so there is a lot of pressure on me now at work to get his stuff done on top of my own. As well I’m doing the work for a person they let go a year ago. Being three people is tough. I’m trying to just take one day at a time and not get too overwhelmed. I know my body doesn’t need that right now. Stress can do a number on your body.
My goal for the week: Breathe!
I'm so sorry for all the stress you are under, and praying for you to find a way to relax. I know how hard it is to do that - I tend to get anxious about everything!
ReplyDeleteAnd I get the pregnant bellies too. I never noticed them before, but now it's like they all are taunting me.
(((hugs)))
I come across those setbacks a lot. Well, at least it feels like a lot. I just started acupuncture and I think it is really helping me to de-stress. I never thought I would have tried it, but I am willing to do anything at this point. I like your goal for the week. Sometimes we just need to breath. Thinking of you!!
ReplyDeleteSetbacks are everywhere. and when you are stressed they seem to be even more frequent. I hope work gets better for you soon. Fingers are crossed for you
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Amy, stress is the worst thing you can do to yourself. I like Jill started acupuncture to destress. *hugs* Praying for less stress for you.
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