Next Time

I had a wonderful weekend shopping in Boston with my mom. It was quality girl time with a lot of laughter. I tried to not think about work, about what is going on inside of me, and all the other stresses in life.

The thoughts of wondering what was going on inside of me came up a lot even though I tried to suppress them. I felt like every time I turned around there was another pregnant woman. It still hurts but I’m remaining positive.

I was in Target looking at the clothes when I stumbled upon the maternity section. I had to take a deep breath for a minute. Instead of looking at the clothes in a negative light, I tried to be positive. I looked at them and said, “Next Time”. Next time when my mom and I go shopping in the fall, I will be pregnant and can shop that section. My baby will be healthy and my belly will continue to grow.

I need to remain optimistic and continue to pray and hope that the next time is going to work. If I don’t I will not be in a good place and I don't want to go back there again. Next time will be a positive time!

My period should come on Saturday so one more week to go until we know if this cycle worked. One more week – I can do it!