Goodbye 2009

I must say I'm not sad to see 2009 go. Straight to the point - 2009 SUCKED. I lost way too many loved ones this year. I lost my youngest uncle, my most beloved grandmother (last living grandparent) and my two unborn children. How can I say that 2009 was a good year after losing those special people in my life? 2009 was supposed to be a great year where my hubby and I would start our family and look forward to bringing a new life into this world. Instead we had to say goodbye to two children that weren't able to show their face in this world. I hated 2009. I don't ever want to revisit and have a year like this again.

2010 - Oh what will this year bring us? Will we be able to briing a healthy baby into this world? Will we finally be able to start a family? Will we actually be able to open the door to our third bedroom and decorate for our child? I know I have to be positive but I'm scared. To want something so badly but instead have to go through such physical and emotional pain. It's just not fair.

Tonight my hubby and I will just be celebrating at home. I don't really feel like being around people and "celebrating". I haven't been in the mood lately. It will be a night of a nice dinner, lots of wine, maybe a nap and possibly watching the ball drop.

Goodbye 2009 - I'm so happy to see you go.

Hello 2010 - wishing for a more joyous and happy year ahead.