More at ease

I’ve been concerned about my job as my boss will be let go the end of this month. I’ve been very stressed about what the means for me. It’s just another unstable part of my life. I had a good chat with my boss’s boss yesterday and am feeling more at ease at least for now. I think he is beginning to understand how valuable I am and how much they need me here. He is even going to look at getting me a raise, despite the economics struggles. I think I can breathe at least for a little while.

Even though I seem to be stable for now, losing my boss is going to be a huge transition for me. I have built a great relationship over the past 2 ½ years with him. He has been my mentor and taught me so much. He knows that I like to be challenged so he has given me those extra difficult tasks. We have a great respect for one another. I think it’s difficult for me as I’ve had some pretty crappy bosses over the years and was finally at a place where I was happy and had a boss who respected me.

For now I know I need to put away the stresses of my job and focus on the other important thing in my life right now; starting a family. When I had the conversation yesterday with my boss’s boss, he asked if I would want to get my CPA and he would pay for it. I’ve been trying to reflect on that as it would be a good opportunity. I have come to realize though that that’s not my focus right now. My priority is starting a family and being a mother. And because of that, I don’t think it’s in my best interest to get my CPA. If he had asked me 5 years ago I might have said yes, but I’m at a different point in my life right now.

I am definitely relieved and now can put my energy towards other things. I must say I slept a little better than I have been the past few nights.

Now to get through tomorrow.