Sleepless Nights

I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. Too much on my mind I guess. I’m hoping my period starts on Saturday and if so then the week of the 15th I can have the 3-D ultrasound done. I’m at the point where waiting is driving me absolutely insane and causing too much anxiety. I just need to know what is going on with my body, how to fix it and when we can start trying again.

I’m concerned about my job too. My boss’s position has been eliminated. I’m afraid I’m next as they want to move all the finances to our other location. This scares me beyond belief. I had finally found a job that I absolutely love and a boss who respects me for me. Now I am losing one and possibly the other. I’m scared of if I am let go, how will I help support my husband and I? In this economy how long will it take to find a job? Will I be able to find a job that I love as much as this one? I don’t want to leave and that is the most frustrating part right now. This couldn’t have come at a worse time right now.

So because of all of this going on, sleep is lacking. I’m still searching for my light at the end of the tunnel. But the tunnel just seems to be getting longer and longer and the light is further out of reach.