I’m So Thankful That...

1. I am carrying this child
2. I am having more symptoms than my last pregnancy
3. We were able to get pregnant on our second month trying
4. This baby will be born around our 3 year anniversary and 1 year of losing our first child
5. I was able to get one of the last 8 H1N1 flu shots at my doctors office to protect me and this child
6. My body is constantly exhausted, knowing it’s working to make this baby healthy and strong
7. My loving husband who is my constant support ( I wouldn’t want to do this with anyone but him)

I am so thrilled to be pregnant but that doesn’t mean I stopped thinking of the baby I lost. On our pregnancy test, we put #2. When I am further along with people ask is this your first, I will say that it is my second and we lost our first one. The child we lost will always be our first and no one can replace that. He came into my life to teach me some lessons for which I’m grateful.

Since I lost our first child, I have been wearing a ring to remember him. My husband asked, now that I’m pregnant, will I take it off. And the answer is NO. I still need to remember our first child. This new person growing inside of me will never replace what we have lost. I think now by wearing this ring, it is less of a symbol of what I have lost but more of a symbol of the strength my angel will give me now. Our first child will be with me through this next pregnancy and watch over us as we go through this exciting time. Will I ever take it off? Probably, but not right now. I still need him.