My long weekend with Lady

Can I say I’m so excited to get out of VT at least for a weekend, forget about my problems and go have some fun girl time shopping with my mom? And this mini-vacation couldn’t come at a better time. It’s the weekend right before when I’m supposed to have my period. Of course I’m obsessing about it and it’s all I can think about. Am I or am I not?

I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately and this is completely normal. I’m not the only one obsessing during the two week wait. Some of the women are stocked with dollar store pregnancy test so they can test five days before and take multiple tests on days. I’m trying to be patient and I’m going to wait until I miss my period, if that happens this month. I have at least some self control in that department. If no period by Wednesday, then we are testing at that time.

I’m not going to lie I’m going to be pretty upset if my period comes. With the holidays coming up, I know it’s going to be emotional for me. I was hoping to be celebrating with a big belly. I was told at just about Christmas time I couldn’t be traveling if something would have happened. I guess that is why getting pregnant this month is so important to me. I feel like it would actually give us something to celebrate. This family needs some good news as we have gone through a lot of crap lately and sad times. I want to go to Thanksgiving dinner to share our news. I want to have a little person in tow in my belly. I WANT TO BE A MOTHER.

I know there is nothing I can do now. My husband and I have done all we can. We just have to wait it out till next week and see what God has in store for us. I know he has a plan for us, I just wish he would share so I’m not constantly wondering and over analyzing everything.