I’m getting really irritated and frustrated right now with my body. Just come period. I’m sick of waiting and just want it here so we can move forward. I’m on day 6 now of the 2-7 days my doctor said my period would come after stopping the medicine. Because I want it to come so badly, is that why it’s taking its time – to just piss me off a little bit more?
In a five month time span I’ve been pregnant twice. After all my body has been through I’m not particularly happy with the way I look right now. Granted I still exercise (walking my dog daily) but not what I want to be doing. With everything going on I’ve either felt like crap or have been so tired to exercise. It’s frustrating me because my hubby and I are going to FL in less than a month. I want to look good but am not feeling good.
There are so many side effects to miscarriages. For me it’s not one but two miscarriages. Between the physical aspects and the emotional aspects I’m about done and ready to feel normal again. I just don’t know if that is possible and I know deep down I will never be like I was before. These babies changed me. And even though I’m going through a lot of crap right now, I know it’s worth it to even have had them in my lives for a little while. Hoping tomorrow is a better day.
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