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I can breathe a little better than I did yesterday. I was a nervous wreck and my anxiety level was on high. I hate procedures like this and it was freaking me out. Thank goodness I love my doctor. I actually feel like she cares and will take the time with me. I know that is hard to find sometimes.

The procedure started off fairly well (even though there was a lot of discomfort). Everything was looking as it should be. I started to breathe a sigh of relief and thank God. Then at the end she spotted something. Of course I started to freak out a bit. She said it looked to be a fibroid. Not what I wanted to hear. We left the office with the news that most likely it was a fibroid and we would have to be sent to a fertility specialist. My biggest fear was I would have to have another procedure like the sonohystogram and was scared.

About 1 hour after the procedure my doctor called saying they tested me for being pregnant and it was negative at first but then had a slight positive. She wondered if what we had seen had been pregnancy tissue that my body hadn’t gotten rid of. I was scared. My husband drove me to get some blood drawn to test my HCG levels. I was nervous all night to say the least just wondering what the deal was with me.

The nurse (who is so kind) called first thing this morning to let me know that the test came back negative. I must say I breathed a sigh of relief.

So now, they are going to make me an appointment to see a fertility specialist. If it is a fibroid, I will have to have a procedure to remove it. I’m scared. I question how much I have to go through to hold my own flesh and blood. But we are starting to get answers and I guess I need to be thankful for that. I still have to get my blood work down to see if there is anything else going on there.

The joys of being a female. I am amazed at how much I have been willing to put my body through. I know in the end will all be worth it, but for now its a scary process.